Retribution

Too Long Too Update.

2011-02-20T19:27:00.002+08:00

Ahh, so how has it been? So long I did not sign in to my blog. What's the use? Not like it's going to be read. Anyway, thanks to Syazwan, I'm trying my best to update my dusty blog again. Where to start? Oh wait, should my blog be a history book based on me or just a place for me to pour things out? Hm, nevermind, I'm just going to compile it all here. Good luck reading.

Year 2010:
Broken hearts, mended hearts. Things that I must highlight about. Ahh, should I use code names again like last time? Oh wait, it actually failed. She found out that her code name belongs to her. Lame. Okay, I'm not going to pour my hearts out yet. I'm going straight through the results for my 'O' level result. Ahh, I've passed of course, but not with flying colours, but with dull colours. I'm guessing luck was on my side for the past national exams I've taken. Thank God. A flat 24 points, after deducting my CCA points. At that moment, I already knew which Poly will I go to. After all the waiting, I've gotten into Business Information System. Don't know if it's good or not because there are 310 planned in-takes. Along with Sakinah and Joey, we've gotten into the same school and course. Just hope we went into the same class too.

"You, whom you left me without a word, left me broken and lost for a while in my life. You, whom I received hope from, left me shattered all again for a while in my life. Yes, for a while, because you are not worth it to be remembered."

Year 2011:
Ahh, welcoming the New Year. My celebration for the New Year isn't like last time. It's a bit dull. Syazwan said we celebrated at Fico Hub, a place which I regretted for something. Don't misunderstand me though, it's not the game I hate, I love soccer. Okay so about soccer, we actually in the midst of stabilizing our team. Levoreno United is back baby! Currently, we lost 1 game, won 3 games and forfeited 1 game. Now Syazwan is on the process of creating a team jersey, though I still think it's still too early but nonetheless, I've loving the team right now. Life goes on and I remembered celebrating Amira birthday. A short one. LOL to that. Tried working for a while. Worked for 4 days with 3 different jobs. Let us give a big laugh for that. Zzzz. I worked for Danmax, Harvey Norman and Times Printers. Total income in earned is, I don't know because there's only $20 left in my bank. Planning to work with Nash at Giant, not sure if I'm hired yet. Oh yarh, I slept at Syazwan's house for 3 days and 2 nights. Cool or what! Living in the same house with him felt so relaxing. I slept with him, and don't think the naughty way okay, we just slept together. Ha ha. Another thing, I had camping event with my 5B dudes, only 6 of us, yeah. It was bloody fun. Too bad we had to end it early since Ubai need to go Malaysia that day. Okay, I'm now trying hard to remember what did I do this past few days. Damn you Syazwan for making me do this. Ha ha! Let's end here then. I always wonder who ever reads this? Currently at Syazwan's house, and while on the way there, you suddenly pop out. There goes my quotation again. LOL.

"You, whom we had fun knowing each other, gotten into love's game and was ended by my own selfish decision. You, whom I adored, has gotten into my own selfish game and I ended crying by myself in the end. You, whom had reached my heart, was then broken into pieces by my selfish games. How I wish I could turn back time and repent my mistakes"

I just realized I typed too much "selfish". It kinda sound like sell fish, and it's weird.

Something Bad.

2010-10-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

Why do I have a feeling that something bad is going to happen? Why do I feel someone is stabbing me from behind? Why indeed. I'm thankful for all the humans that I know. I love them, from the bottom of my heart, even though sometimes we fight. I don't know why I'm crapping out all this. Maybe it's a last goodbye for a friend whose going to tear me into pieces? Maybe I'm just being overboard. Whatever shits, I should stop worrying about all this and focus on Os!

Dear Allah,
Please guide my way.
Amin.

O Crap!

2010-10-21T10:31:00.001+08:00

Last time, is Noob Level.
Now, is O-crap Level.
Real craps.
Good luck Shafiq! ~

Reality.

2010-10-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

Nothing is real, Everything is temporary.
Meow ~

17th.

2010-09-19T13:10:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th birthday to ME!

Raining Tears.

2010-09-07T15:54:00.002+08:00

I wish I could just stop raining tears.
Because this tears does not mean a thing to you.

Go Away Devil!

2010-08-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

Stop pestering me. Stop brainwashing me. Stop controlling me. Can't you see, I'm a weak-mind creature. Don't take advantage of me ! - To the Devil.

Adored.

2010-08-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether I should be happy or sad.
One thing is sure for certain, that we're just the past.
All the best in your life,
And thanks for being the person that I once adored.

Without You.

2010-07-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

I left out too many opportunities. I cast it all away. Now, I'm all alone. Living myself in darkness. All alone, without you.

My own little World.

2010-06-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'm drowned in my own little world.
Somehow I can't get out of it.

Misjudged.

2010-06-10T22:03:00.006+08:00

I thought I had you.
I misjudged you.
Sorrow fills me.
You're like a rose,
With a foul smell.
What are we?
What am I,
to you?

Back on My Lyrics!

2010-06-06T21:45:00.003+08:00

Thank you guys for supporting me. Now, I'm back to write lyrics.
Back on my old times, summarizing my rhymes in critics.

Together as One.

2010-06-03T14:56:00.005+08:00

Hey, I've been thinking.
Can our hearts come together as one?

Blow them Away.

2010-05-24T18:08:00.004+08:00

How I wish I could gather all of my emotions, tear it apart, and let the wind blow them away.

I Worked Out.

2010-03-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

Ah yes, been working out on my body. Ate a lot, drink a lot, poo a lot, pee a lot and most importantly, I exercise. I can feel my muscles now, ooo yeah. Ok that's it.

Jo Kwon <3 Gain !

Peace.

Exhausted!

2010-03-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

Okay, March holiday gonna end soon. Lets write up a summary about this few days I've done.

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Hm, I kinda forget some, but I remembered I sent my Parents including my sister to the airport. They went to Indonesia. I don't really know why. My brother got Spec Course and yeah, 3 days I'm alone in my gloomy house. Luckily Bear and Dog came to company me during my loneliness.

(I kinda planned my study time during this 3 days, but damn, I kinda put my studies aside and fulfill my loneliness with fun.)

Lets start from today, I was having a sinful day from the beginning of my Friday. Didn't go for prayers. Went to Fico. Meet up with my usuals. Was kinda bad mood when I reached Fico Hub, I don't know why. Rivals and enemies I met up but I put that aside for a while. So yeah, played soccer until 6pm. I knew that my brother is coming home but I assume that he brought his keys along. Turns out he became homeless while I having fun kicking hairy balls. Reached home, felt exhausted, chat with Amira, both of us were tired from our day. Did my Geog corrections, gawd I need to do it 3 times, and the correction are the essay ones. Asshole Yap! Ok so maybe I'm going to start on my homework and revisions, if there is no distractions.

Until then,

Peace.

So Sunny!

2010-03-16T00:06:00.001+08:00

Sunny! <3

That's all =D

Falling Slowly.

2010-03-15T22:52:00.003+08:00

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react

Quoted from-
Falling Slowly by Once OST

Peace.

Wrote a Song for You.

2010-02-23T21:52:00.004+08:00

I've always wrote a song for you, and it's worth it.
Though the lyrics of you I've lost it,
but your smile still flashes in my head,
and your eyes shines like the sunrise.
Can you feel this magic in the air?

Smiley Badge.

2010-02-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

I lost my smiley badge. There goes my uniquely bag. Getting too fed up. More people are wearing the same bag as mine. Damn, shouldn't have bought it from zinc shop. Looks like I need to put up patches on my bag again. Diaoz. Ok Imma end here. I miss my Big Boy.

Peace.

Wedding Dress.

2010-02-06T22:43:00.004+08:00

I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that you would leave his side

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best

I’ve been living the lies for too long

Quoted from:
Wedding Dress - Tae Yang
Lyrics.

Peace.

Triple S birthdays!

2010-02-05T23:14:00.003+08:00

GPS-Crow Zero <3

Today, was fun! Yeah! School was perfect as I get to know Sadeesh more. He is so good with cards! He did a trick and I was like wow! Was so freaking shock of his skills. I think most of the people from the canteen notice my "wow" expression during recess. So lesson go on as normal, then went to mosque. Finished prayers then meet up with Fadluddin and Ahmad. Ask Ahmad buy for me Ice Blast then we're off to our destination!

Went to food culture, then I was like smiling all the wayy! So freaking happy seeing my ol'mates again=D Then me, Whale, DJ and Faiz went out of Lot1 to take a blow. Talk2, then went in again. Met Ahmad along the way, passes me my Ice Blast then went to the Food culture. Eat, joke, laughs. I love it! Then went to roof garden, terserempak ngan GSP, waved, then Idris whacked me. Ouch. I walk sat2 also cannot, sad :( But, I love him so much! Met other peeps too! Fakhs, Dzik, Idris, Fir, Aini, Yim Ling. My gawd, its massive fun! Then celebrated "our" birthdays :x Took lots of pictures, but too bad it was raining heavily. Going down the escalator also took picture. The hallway of Lot1 also took picture! My Gawd! I love it! Muahaha!

After all the fun, went home with Madito, ExWife and Sam. Reached home, changed clothes, chat2 at MSN, then lepak with Madito, Rayyan and Miko. After that Ahmad accompany me to south view, I went tuition, blablabla.

Reached home at night, on the phone with Jennifer from Bangkit LRT to Yew Tee. My gawd! Then going to bed also OTP. -.- Slept at 12.30 like that. Okay, end of story.

Peace.

Oh!

2010-02-04T22:58:00.006+08:00

Hearts Sunny Lots!
Oppa oppa, I'll be I'll be, down down =D

Didn't go CIP today. Too lazy. Went home with Mazhab, Zul and Shadeesh. Talk with the new guy. After the month of April, I will now have someone to buy for me Clouds! Yeash, tak yarh susah2 lagi. Ok so tomorrow after praying going to meet up with Aryna, Syazwan, Ahmad and so on at Lot 1. Reunioun I think? Heard that they want lunch, or something else ;D Oh yes, just gotten my $250! Thank you mom! Maybe the 150 going to buy alcohol and cigarettes then the remaining, donate to charity. Yeah =D

Peace.

Goodbye.

2010-01-31T22:35:00.001+08:00

Finally, I can do the song Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade on guitar!

Peace, Assholes!

Pimple-Face Dude.

2010-01-29T18:20:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's wrong mixing with you all. Now, got one pimple face dude stared at me while me and my friends going to mosque. What the hell? Then Whale called, it's the same person. Wow, this is a big problem and when there's big problem going on, my BIG people will come and join the beef. Nonsense larh they all, want to stare a small kid like me sey, some more stare like want to eat me. How sad.

Currently preparing for tuition. Haven't done my homework. Hais, that's all arh.

You're totally out of mind. Yessa!

Peace, you motherfuckers!

Maybe it's just me.

2010-01-28T20:18:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's just me, that I'm feeling this way.
And for this to get rid away,
I need to lie, fake a smile and pretend that I care.
Oh well, this is how I am.
I'm confused, what are you thinking on the inside, show it to me.
Are you showing it on the outside, just let me see.
It's killing me, maybe because I knew the truth.
I'm holding it, trying not to let loose.
Maybe it's just me, feeling this way.

Peace. =D

Misses.

2010-01-23T21:01:00.001+08:00

I miss my bear. I miss my cliques. I miss the old days. I miss the fun. Now, all of them are leading their own lives. I'm kinda lost right now. However, I found new people but will they give me much fun like in my old days? To be honest, this problem has been going through my mind and I just can't get it straight. Well, yeah that is all for my post.

Peace.

Boredness with Pleasure.

2010-01-17T00:43:00.003+08:00

Currently on the phone with Amyra. So today lepak with Dzikri and Izsehari, played guitar joke around. Oh yar, that time Dzik haven't bathe yet and also haven't brush his teeth. He is equivalent to a pig. Haha! Ok so lepak with them for a while, then followed Iz to pick up his girlfriend, gave me sticks then I'm off to the den of Whales.

Reached Whale's house and yeah, lepak down there and played his Ps3 FIFA 10. Watch things, eat things, blow things and so on. Reached home around 9PM. Suddenly my house got power trip, in fact it's the whole block. My sister was damn scared. Luckily, I am brave like the lion. I went around the house to fix back the trip but actually, I don't need to do anything. Played guitar while the lights were out, then all of a sudden, the lights were back again. Maybe its because of my melodic voice that brought the power back for the whole block. Thanks to Shafiq. So played 360 all day, texted Amyra then now on the phone. Gotta stop here.

Peace.

Sucking Dumb.

2010-01-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

Is it enough for me to say I'm sorry. I'm dumb am I? Handphone pat depan muke but still I fell asleep. Sorry for not replying =(

Today eh, sucking man. Fell asleep in malay class, couldn't concentrate on studies, blur the whole time, got scolded by jiran then didn't call Amyra after I promised her. I am so selengerrrr. Amyra, I would like to repeat myself that I'm sorry for just now and also me and Syazwan for causing you trouble like just now. I was so stunned sey. At least you and Syazwan reply back to the jiran. I was so, hopeless, weak. Urgh. Sometimes I just wonder, did we make your life miserable or memoriable.

I am so hopeless.

Peace.

A New Begining.

2010-01-10T14:38:00.003+08:00

Quite a long time I didn't update. Too lazy to type my thoughts here. Yawn~

Ok so 1st day in school as a Sec 5 student was sucked. Sway uh. 1st day I was late for school. It was raining, but I don't blame the rain, it's just that, I'm to lazy to walk fast. Reached that school gate and Andy Chia sounded me for my hair. After that went to the hall blankly, know why? I didn't what class I was in. I sat down in the 5A row. Mazhab, Nash and Syakir was the first three I saw that day. Then Mr Khir pulled me out and sat beside him at the chair, with hundreds of people infront of me. So embarassed. I kept my head down while listening to what Mr Khir has to say. Just when I thought the "hair" problem was over, the school wanted to freeze all unacceptable hairs. They wanted to call my parents and they did. Bloody pantat gave my number to Mr Raj, and he called my handphone number, what the hell, I didn't answered. So yeah, the day goes on like normal lifes.

Cut my hair manually, and I cut Pantat's hair too. My dad go bald my hair, but its not that bad right? Cibai pantat, he still got layered behind but Hoe just gave him warnings only. Argh! Then the following day, Hoe caught me for my pants. What the fuck man. Go detention room, luckily Mr Khir let me go and also the others. Oh yarh, that day met GSP. Haha. Weird, 1st time meet but we acted like as if we've known each other since babies. Haha. Laughed a lot that time, took pictures. Haha. Weird. Ok so that time we all reached lot 1 and said farewell to them as they went home. Ikan Paus wants to buy shirt so I accompanied him. Then what eh, I kinda forget some.

Then recently, me and Paus lepak with one of GSP member, Amyra =D. I kinda forget how start to lepak together. Then yesterday, GSP got the CCA Orientation thing then I got this freaking boring flag day. Met Zul then Razi. While heading to the staff room, I kinda saw Amyra there, haha, sorry eh I didn't tegoh, got my friend arh, hehe. Ok so took the can then met Rio with Nash, Din, Luthfi and Razi. He bought for me Next Chill then lepak for a while. Rio kept bullying me. Asshole. After that Luthfi went to Miko house, Nash and Din went to Hanus house while me and Razi went to Paus House. Lepak down there. Then we all including Paus, went to the school to return our cans then lepak at the Cashew Pondok for a while. Met Sakinah then bullied her a lot, but instead, she bullied me more. How sad was that. She hammered me from the back then whack me everywhere, I think I'm going to have bruises. Ouch.

Then we all parted except for me and Paus. Iszehari called me to lepak at yew tee, but I kinda, pai tao him uh. Sorry bro! Went to Amyra house there lepak down there like Kampong Kids. Waited for Amyra for like, I kinda forget. So erm, met her, talk talk, buat bende nonsense, hehe, then played the fortune game. Kekek larh. Then went home around, I forgot. So yarh that was yesterday. Now? Stucked at home, no soccer training today, Amyra got her handphone back, did house chores and now on PC. Oh yarh, sorry Amyra for getting your handphone confiscated, it's our fault. But glad she got back. Haha. Ok so I think that's it then. Yawn~

Peace.

East Coast Fever.

2010-01-02T02:12:00.003+08:00

Today, I mean yesterday, was a hell of fun! Me, Syazwan, Husaini, Dzikri, Iszehari, Fakhrullah, Zakwan, Salihin, Asshiddiq, Zulhelmi, and Syahirah Sidek. We went to East Coast Park there without food, drinks or any bookings for the pit. Our so called fun stuffs was just a soccer ball and some of us brought along extra their undergarments. With only our wits, craziness and activeness, that soccer ball can make a big difference.

Must I start from the first? My body was weak back then, kept on coughing. I was still sick from the KL trip. But hey, this might be our last so called gathering. Too bad Syamel and Faiz never come. Syamel too busy with his, Happy New Year thing then Faiz was too busy with his Chemistry. My gawd! He had started his revision already!

Okay so took bus, argh! Lazy to type it all. This photo shows all of our happiness on that day. There is still some photos, I posted them at facebook, then some photos were at Syazwan's phone. So yeah, I had fun yesterday :)

Peace=D

2010-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year :)

Peace.

Resolutions.

2009-12-31T18:40:00.005+08:00

My hair is kinda long right now, but not as long as Husaini. Gonna cut it maybe on 2nd or 3rd January and the haircut that I had chosen is like Jaebeom! I think it's mullet + mohawk and behind is layered. Yeah. Need to contact Ahmad right now!

Half an hour more. Let's talk about 2009. Let me think, I'm not sure myself. Okay, erm, summarize a bit yeah? Hm, a challenging one this year. Lot of things happened to fast. New, old and repeated. But mostly is new. New to situations that are mostly are my imagination but came true. I don't want to embarrass myself by explaining what is it, so people who knew me, just figure out aright? What I'm looking for the next year which 2010, I'm hoping for new things to appear soon or maybe dreams of mine to come true and not just stuck in my dream world only. Resolved conflicts and misunderstandings are one of the top resolutions, and also, well duh, to pass my O levels. Hope that next year won't be a troublesome one. That's all then, now, maybe continue watching 2PM Variety Shows.

Peace =)

Sickness from the Joy.

2009-12-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

Back from KL Trip. Went to Genting Highlands ( a total of estimated 4 times I've been there) and my first time ever riding on the Shooting Star and the Corkscrew. It was tremendously fun! But every fun time must come to an end with a sickness of mine. While driving down the hill of Genting, there's a pressure been pushed through my ear. It was okay at first but it gets even more painful. Thus, because of the hot and cold weather changes and the pressure, I felt sick through the whole day of my trip. Until now, I'm still sick.

Bought kinda a lot of things. I bought a total of 3 items for myself. 1 Jacket, 1 Sweater and 1 tight-fit jean ( AKA skinny jean). Only one item left for me to satisfy my hunger, it is my shoes. Too bad not many shoes been spotted. Most of the shoes are for man and not teens. So, in the end, didn't bought and shoes. Okay I'm typing like a girl now.

Basically today stayed at home. Iszehari called to lepak downstairs but I said I might be delayed. Around 7.30pm, I called Iszehari he didn't pick up and Dzikri just came back. So I didn't lepak today. Spent the whole day infront of the laptop and 360 FIFA 10. Tomorrow, maybe lepak, see how my condition is. One last note to Bear, don't lose hope, I have a plan :)

Peace.

Away to Kuala Lumpur.

2009-12-25T22:30:00.003+08:00

I'm out for, not sure how many days. Tomorrow until Tuesday, count uh.

Peace.

Fico Madness.

2009-12-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

Today was indescribably great! Went to fico with my peeps! Even though it was tiring, the fun was overwhelming until I can't feel the time! Haha! It really makes me happy when I see their faces smiling.

Bear and K9 went into my house to play 360 in the morning. Called me while I was still asleep around 10am. Let them in, then I went to take a shower. Did the morning stuffs, ate breakfast then meet up with the rest. I was surprised that Monster and Gigi came! Take a lil smoke here and there then off to fico. Iszehari came after we reached fico. Paid up then soccer time! Punyelarh gerek! No fights at all, only smiles =D

Ok larh, till I here I want to type. Maybe mom going to buy for me an electric guitar or give me $250 for a present! Yahooo!

Peace =D

Leaving the Adulthood.

2009-12-22T23:25:00.004+08:00

From now on, I'm going to stop working for a while and focus on upcoming events. Going to miss Liaw and Aqil from my workplace. Kept making nonsense stuffs and I seriously was shocked that Liaw and Hockey are trying to find porn websites! My gawd. Their age are almost like my mom's and they still do this? Me and Aqil found out what were they doing. They were trying really hard, and I mean hard, to find M18 websites. And so, I lifted up their burden. I gave them one website and Hockey typed them. Both of them were "Woah!". Then Hockey sounded me, "Kecik kecik pandai arh." Wuahahaha! Then me and Aqil left the Panasonic building while leaving them watch "movies". =D

And so my life as an adulthood ended there. From today onwards, I will be returning to my teenage's life. Tomorrow going Fico with some of my cliques. Might be our last gathering since some of them like Bear and Dzik are going to ITE, leaving me , Husaini and Sam alone in Sec 5. Ok so I'm just hoping that tomorrow will a fun day and not like the other day, where there are lots of fights. So yeah, Looking forward for tomorrow, even though only maybe 13 of us turn up.

And I really wonder how Bear got the guts to do stuffs that I can't do, like making friends from a completely stranger. How I wish I got his guts with me.

Peace =D

It's 1.11am.

2009-12-20T01:11:00.001+08:00

Its 1.11 am. Nice timing. Looks like everyone in my house had entered their dream world. Took a shower just now, just to clean off my oily face. Watched Liverpool VS Portsmouth and Manchester City VS Sunderland. Liverpool lost to Portsmouth 0-2 and Man City won Sunderland 4-3. Disappointed for Liverpool, and a relief for Man City. Woohoo! Now of course updating this plain so called blog.

Went out with Dzik and Bear to Jurong Point just now. Had to do laundry first before I went out to meet Bear under my block. Sorry for the long waiting bro! Okay so met him and off to Dzik's crib. Waited for him outside his house. We kinda vandalized "something" onto the staircase's step. It's Bear's idea not mine =D. Ok so Dzik's finally went out of his house and then we're off to Jurong Point. Our motive for going there is to company Dzik to buy a new clothes but instead, Dzik and I bought something except Bear. I think the reason why Bear is not buying anything because he wants to save up money to buy burgers. Yeah =D. Dzik bought a, I don't know what's the clothes type is but the stall name is from Man Master. Then I bought my Left 4 Dead for Xbox360 and a long sleeve shirt. Yeah that's it. After that, take a lil' smoke then went home.

Played Left 4 Dead bla bla bla, Dad ordered Sauc-something Pizza and we ate them and bla bla bla and now ended up here. That's all for today. Tomorrow got soccer training with Schwarz Star! Tagging along with K9 and Hus. So yeah that's it for today's post. Boring and simple.

Do sometimes my expression looks gloomy? It's like an expression which I don't give a damn about anything. Haha, yeah, that's me =D

Peace.

My retribution, my story.

2009-12-18T20:10:00.000+08:00

This is my retribution, this is my story.

I passed! In the 18th December 2009, I got 18 for my aggregate score. I love 18. Jersey number 18, index number for religious class 18, aggregate score 18 and what more 18? Haha! Lucky number. Dad asked my what do I want for a present, the truth is, I'm not sure. Maybe 2 more Xbox360 controllers, Left 4 Dead and Left 4 Dead 2 Xbox 360 games. Nice. But I also would want an organ piano or an electric guitar. Maybe it's too expensive for just an 18 score. Maybe, a treat for Fico? Or 2 soccer jerseys, 2009/2010 Newcastle jersey and long sleeve Manchester City jersey. I'm not sure. So many things are running through my head now.

Gotta start revision as soon as possible. Like I said in the last post, I will be a nerd for the next year and stop temporarily as a "gangster". Hahas, well that is nonsense. Maybe going to buy books with Faiz and the rest or maybe alone. Not sure with that. Time to complete my high school next year, and a memoriable one too.

I seriously going to miss Bear and K9. Not to forget Dzikri and Dinnie. And also PS and all of the girls in 4B. I'm going to miss my Ex-Wife too. Muahaha! I really hope you all will do well in your next year school. Maybe someday, we should plan a chalet! Woots! Thinking about that had make me hype already. I seriously going to miss you all!

Peace.

Plans for the worse.

2009-12-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

My gosh. Xbox 360, I repaired it, $510. 210 for the repairs, 35 for the service charge and the plus the GST. How about the remaining? Where does the 200 or 100 plus came from? I was cheated. A big bold businessman cheated on me for money, a little timid smurf kid. Dzikri was shouted back after he said it was a lie, that of the price. But in return, he said it will be guarantee that this hardware problem will not come again. He better be right, or else thousands of Mat Rempits will be waiting outside of the Sim Lim Square. Even my Dad was fed up. Hais, silly me. Well, at least I got to play FIFA 10 again, and I'm going to buy Left 4 Dead and Left 4 Dead 2 on Xbox. Woohoooshiiit. I nearly lost all of my money to that evil man. I think I'm just left 100 bugs. I need to pay Bear and Dog for thier salary. I don't know if I've gotten thier pay from Salmah, Grandma. Better to settle things now that wait longer. So later, around 10 am, hopes I woke up early, going to meet up with Bear to pay him. His 42 bugs. I hate the adult world. Damn it. After settling things with him, then is Dog's turn. Shit. His salary is 84. My bank account left only flies inside. Looks like I'm going need to talk to Grandma Salmah. Emailed her the dates the all of us work, I really hopes this will help. Fuyooo!

Problems in school and problems at work. Very different thing. Social and economic. Bloody ass. I want to go back to school! I want to play interclass soccer! I want to smoke in school! I want to bully Mdm Teh! I want to tease Mr Raj's hair! I want to get into fights! I miss walking in groups! I miss school! I miss getting crushes! I miss getting enemies! I miss finding new friends! I miss studying! I miss being nerd! I miss everything! Sad.

So, where will my future lead to huh? ITE or Sec 5, or even a dropped out or a repeat student. Hm, If I'm going to ITE, I will be working part-time. Then if Sec 5, I will turn into a nerd make study as my life. If I'm a dropped out, maybe will be working with Grandma Salmah until I die. If I'm going to repeat, then, I'll study hard as I can. Gosh. I wonder which path that God had written onto my future list. Will it be bad? I hope not.

Had Futsal every Tuesday with Levo and some Sec 2s. I really was surprised of what going onto me that time. Maybe the wind blows at the wrong direction. I was so frustrated with Zul. I know he was mad at Syazwan, but I notice he is letting his anger out on small little children, that is the Sec 2s. Then when I take possession of the ball, he knock me down with fierce force push like an angry monkey. I fell of course, duh. Then I stand up, and swing my skinny leg onto his ankle. There goes the fire. Peeps said it was the first time I was fired up like that. Hahas, I'm a gangster, that's what gangster do. Then after all that, me and Zul made peace and went back as per normal. The end.

Ok, going to stop here. Maybe going to have a match with Regent on Saturday. Kembangan, so far. Time, 10 am. Oh-Em-Gee. I really hope they change the venue, I'm too tired to wake up early and take MRT to go far away from my hometown.

Peace. Take care dear, drink lots and lots of water kaeys :)

Repairs with K9.

2009-11-28T12:47:00.000+08:00

Heading to Sim Lim Square later on. Not sure with who, maybe with K9 since his the only one who confirmed with me. Going to waste some money to repair my 360. Hope it revives back to normal. Alright, I don't know what to type anymore. Blogging seems a hardwork isn't it? You need to remember things and type it down like a life report of yourself. Maybe I should change the way of the use for Blogs. Ok that's it. Time to watch Clannad.

Peace.

Alternative Ego.

2009-11-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

I wonder how it feels when I use people as my pawns in order to achieve my goals. Seems dramatic and evil isn't it? Life is like a chess game. Thinking through situations and opportunities are a must in order to win. Did I think through all this before I made a move? I don't think so, no. So, what am I going to do. Do I just hide myself or pretend that nothing happen? Weird questions, but it is somehow true. What are my solutions? I still hasn't figure it out. So lets just play along with fates. It's the only way that I can think off. Hell, I don't even know what I just typed.

Peace.